Don't wanna lose one, I lose both, I lose then.(PART 1)

As I promised, i will share my recent love story so you can relate better to my future post talking about my love life. But before I begin I just want you to know that I post this just to share my story. As plain as that.

The story started about a year ago. Our professor in Physics did not come to class so we, my classmates and i,  had the chance to do a sharing, something like "question-answer" thing. we talked about a lot of stuffs until we resorted to the question "Sinong crush/Like mo dito sa Classroom?" well at first i was thinking if i will answer the question honestly, cause i don't get the courage to tell her (ako na torpe). the ball started rolling, in the end, i discovered that, my best friend like the girl i like and the the girl like(used to) me (insert big smile here). 

After that day, the girl and I started texting. we became closer compared before(we weren't really close before that day). I didn't notice that i am falling deeper in love with her and i didn't actually want to recognize the feeling. but the time came that i became so jealous when i see them together.  (If I remember it right, my friend and the girl became close because they joined a dance contest during our college week. ) then i let my feelings out. i told her i really really really like her. Then we became closer and closer, we are good friends then.

The flow is smooth until i discovered that my friend is actually falling in love with the girl i like. That's the time I started to think again. He's my friend. As much as possible I don't want to hurt him. BUT..how about me? Well I thought,  If I choose my personal happiness, he might get offended and eventually lose our friendship. on the other hand, if i stop my feeling for the girl, the three of us will remain friends but there will be pain. At first i chose the latter. I tell everyone that i don't want to do it anymore although i didn't want to.

Sem Break...

during the sem break, i broke my phone. hence, i cant receive text messages until the first week of the second sem. i borrowed my dad's phone and through that i received the GM's of my friend and a PM from the girl. and i get the feeling that something's going on. 

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